[still] under construction

2012-01-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

- BCS EUT exchange : "you naik eh nanti?". Spekulasi, spekulasi.
- Perfect timing : orange peel thigh and february action plan.
- Dah jatuh hukum ke kalau macam ni? #BM track6

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bukan syarikat pemegang

2012-01-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

"Sibuk cari replacement you...."

Hmm. Bunyi macam menggembirakan, tapi tak boleh berharap sangat sampai ada hitam putih. Memang macam ni kat tempat ni. Huhu. Cuak pun ada. Cepat juga masa berlalu ya...

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Today's minor achievements

2012-01-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

1. Bathed Jaiho. She must have hated it. Kesian.

2. Made simple bujang spaghetti bolognese. My kitchen activities these days, leave much to be desired. Resuscitation plan needed.

3. Somewhat updated my Money. Six months' spending, untracked. Credit card statements and receipts were much help although XX is still unaccounted for. Might resort to using the self-created expenses line "i don't know where it went".

To do:
Print pay slips up to date.
Instruct HR to make zakat deduction.

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2012-01-24T01:24:00.002+08:00

Hope it's not too late~

Seize. While it's still there to be seized.

Barney's got a friend

2012-01-23T19:43:00.001+08:00

Ok bossu, we've raised our red flags. We long for the day when this thing is declared a white elephant and all resourses to be utilised for making it a bigger whiter elephant be spared. Kamon. Re.ima.gine.e.ner.gy.kate.nye.

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2012-01-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

During our last conversation that Wednesday night, I felt like I was talking to a familiar stranger. It was polite with appropriate small talks to brace ourselves for the heavier subject that we could no longer avoid, and both couldn’t, or wouldn’t be the one to say that it’s over; we hovered around the imminent finality as though there was an escape. In the end, after many exchange of “so…..?” and as both of us knew very well that for our inability to come to a resolution/compromise, there was nothing else to be done. I let you have the honour and guilt to end it, again, as I could never do it myself.

It’s not that I am not willing to pack my life and go to where you are. In the plans that I made, that was exactly how things would be, at least for a leased time; a year or two; maybe three. Why wouldn’t I want to live in the city that I cherished so much, the place where I had one of the best years in my life in? But Permanent Residency, was never in the picture, no. Even after Mak has said “pergilah Nina, Mak benarkan”, I don’t have the heart to leave. With Abah gone, Mak’s health and my current family dynamics, I could not live my life so selfishly and just leave.

Before I left for London three years ago, I remember saying this jokingly to Abah “Kalau Nina kahwin dengan orang putih (dan tak balik) macam mana hihihihi?”

“Kalau macam tu, Abah hilanglah anak Abah….” he answered.

***

I do not want to be anak yang ‘hilang’ to my parents.

***

Dear beloved,

In you, I have found my match. It’s a shame that our future plans are mismatched. So, with heavy heart, I accept that it has come to an end. What I have planned, what we have planned or failed to, I know Allah has the best for you and for me J

oh, hai.

2011-12-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Love hurts.

Brought up the topic towards the end of our lunch, just to get some perspective and insights that were perhaps, overlooked. She's the kind of person to give good advice.

"When you put your parents first, everything else will come easy, InsyaAllah.... Memang lebih afdhal anak lelaki yang menjaga ibu bapa....."

You could come out with a whole spreadsheet of plans, but Allah is the best of planners. Life is a box of chocolate, eat with open ~~mouth~~ heart :)

Years had passed, and it all came down to.... an ultimatum?

Oh, I am somebody's sunshine, apparently. How did I become a sunshine?

Oh, can you pass me the manual, I need to know how to start over. Or reeeeeeewind. Ok, pause will do..

Love sets you free.

oh, bai.

ahjumma

2011-10-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

Yeap. Always a first time for every thing ;p

Cannot deny the charms. No iron. No brooch. No serkup.

Warning: although reducing getting ready time, it might add to the age.

Tapi xpe. Penyelamat until hari-hari malas.

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!@#$%&&*?

2011-10-11T08:44:00.001+08:00

Stupid ass. I can kill someone right now.

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Lagu berhantu

2011-10-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

Memang berhantu.

Sampai pada malam yg kutermimpi hantu pun, background lagu adele. (wtf?)

(and it's not even hantu orang putih youuu, if i had to describe my dream i'd say it's akin to an indonesian horror movie....yg eeerie tu. Bila dh terjaga, nk gerak pun takut, nk tukar side bantal pun tak sanggup).

Anyway. Love the song for the same reasons others love it. I wish nothing but the best, for you too...

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?

2011-10-03T22:54:00.001+08:00

Due to the urgency (bit*hing sessions had been had one too many times already on that), i had to go to jln damanlela myself. At the security, i answered, no, not for interview, just to drop and collect documents. Finally arrived at 23a, waited at the place i used to wait and looking at the view i used to view. There i saw them, anticipating and waiting for the unknown. Macam aku dulu. Do they not know, the professional mistake they're abt to commit? 3 yrs tak lama? That's subjective/relative. ding dong ding dong. Papers were exchanged. finally, i returned with duly signed afs. Cepatlah yang lain habis,sumpah tak larat dah nk tgk, cover to cover ;p

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WW

2011-08-17T07:21:00.001+08:00

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catch 22

2011-07-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

Setelah seharian yang kencang dan berapi kat opis, sampai rumah pukul 11.30 malam, rasa seperti perlu buat sesuatu untuk de-stress (atau konon2 nak rasa macam ade life selain kerja)

Pilihan:
1- Tonton satu episod Merlin (tapi, satu episod dlm 45 min, nanti takut lama sangat, pukul berapa nak tido)
2- Tonton setengah episod cerita korea (tapi, tak boleh janji, kdg2 lambat gila nk buffer walaupun dengan unifi)
3- Buka youtube lagu rock kapak dan melontarkan apa-apa yang boleh dilontar; vokal, baju kotor ~~atau laptop ofis ke luar tingkap~~ (tapi, hari dah malam, dan si kecik comel pulak kat bilik sebelah)

Makanya, end up update blog, sambil cuba buffer jugak cerita korea (lembab macam siput, buat aku tambah stress pun ada).

'sesal dahulu pendapatan,
tidur lambat, esok mengantuk.'

tapi nak jugak

Merbahaya. Ke Berbahaya?

2011-07-18T15:36:00.001+08:00

So. Today I went to the bank to collect my (first ever) credit cards.

Went back up to my desk a little after 2.

With two pairs of shoes/sandal.

Apakah?????

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Happy Sunday!

2011-07-03T10:56:00.002+08:00

Just got back from tasik. Got myself jogging for five minutes and walking much much more. Fitness level is at record's low, I guess. Can't say my current lifestyle is not contributing to this downfall, but that's a story for another day.

So while waiting for the sweat to dry-off (believe me it will only take minutes), let me just share what I've planned for today.

Take Jaiho to the vet, if it's even open on a Sunday. I reckon Jaiho is having a post-partum depression, not her cheerful self. Eversince she gave birth, she looks sad, doesn't want to eat & come out to play with me. I haven't seen her kittens, perhaps all didn't survive. When I got back from work on Friday, her belly was already flat, as well as her little spirit. Maybe grooming would do her good too. Oh my Jaiho, you're making me saaad :(

Help mum with stuff she's been asking me to do. Maybe for an hour or so.

Then off to office. Yes, yes. Such is life of somebody who's month/quarter/year-end scheduling is very much dictated by the 'closing' activity. Hope to get much done today as the weeks to come seem pretty daunting. Perhaps I will share if when I survive to tell the tale.

I plan to get a few hours sleep after coming home from work. Yes, need to plan to sleep since I didn't get enough last night. Spent the hours surfing the net because I don't get much time for that any other nights.

At night, there's a wedding to attend. Can't wait. I'm very sure it's gonna be a very beautiful wedding.

Happy Sunday people! Hope you'll have a productive one! :)

2011-06-05T04:48:00.001+08:00

It does not do good to be sombong. You are not all that.