silver lining

Lets start this entry with that age old saying, "everything happens for a reason".


Now i see why i'm studying in shah alam, of all places. so that i'm close to home. for as long as i can remember, i have always wanted to further my studies abroad, not here. though i'm quite disheartened with my being unable to attain that dream (well there's always a chance for postgraduate studies/professional papers blah blah), i have to admit, there is a reason why Allah let me stay here. to take care of nenek.

something that happened today makes me realize how 'fragile' nenek is and how badly i need to be around her.

"walaupun nina kengkadang tension ngan nenek, nina teramat sangat sayang kat nenek....."


sebab nenek tinggal sekali, n kaklong & kamil pun takde, nina je la yg tinggal kat rumah. walaupun kaklong balik weekend, tapi suma bende pun, nenek suruh nina yg buat.. kengkadang, nina rasa cam tak adil. bukan part yg nina kene buat segala bende(fine, nina anggap tu tanggungjawab yg dilakukan lovingly) tapi cam kaklong n kamil tak payah lalui ape yg nina lalui. tiap-tiap hari. u guys are not around to share it with me. mmglah situation skrg kire dpt wujudkan the closeness that i have with nenek, tapi saat2 yg menensionkan nina yg tanggung sendiri. faham tak perasaan?!?!

"ni nenek cakap betul ni, kalau nina takde, tak tau la ape nak jadi. susah nenek. kalau nina kawin nanti, suami bawak pegi........haih..."

"ala, nanti nina bawak nenek tinggal skali...........(stops).. eh tak, ermmm.....(well i dont wanna make promises i cant keep)"

"ala, tak payah pindah la nina, duduk je kat sini..... bilik ade banyak bla bla bla..."

"mane bole nek, katil kecik (single bed), nnti tak muat. brg2 lain lagi....."

"ye tak ye jugak. mane muat 2 org tidur satu katil...."

"tu la nenek. kalu nak tido satu katil, nina ngan suami nina kene main peluk-peluk laaaaa.... teeheehee"

"aaaaalaaahai......geli hati aku cakap ngan budak nina ni....."



okay fine, so im gatal sket bab bab nih. korang je la yang 'baik', otak clean. btw, bakal 'che abang' mungkin tak selamat la, kalau katil kecik sgt, because i 'berkung-fu' semasa tidur. muehehe.


sometimes, i feel like im the protector of my family, ie when abah's not around. yela, kaklong n kamil pun takde....... haih. (btw, kamil ni dah decide ke blum nak balik ke tak??? saje buat orang rindu lama2.... hahahaha)

a few days ago, i had a nightmare. something horror-ish la, like a scene in THE RING. and upon waking up, i heard someone kinda like knocking on my bedroom door. well more like banging it. i was so kecut perut. later i heard other noise as though somebody had broken into my house. well when u're scared, segala jenis bunyi, dengar cam bunyi orang. me being me, (ha!) i grabbed my father's golf club (the-one-i-keep-in-handy-just-in-case), then i took some 50ringgit notes from the drawer and put it somewhere safer, and, anticipated for the worse to happen. gila aku memang paranoid dowh!!

so alhamdulillah, nothing happened. but seriously, what should u do when this thing happens again, ie, thinking that a burglar is in ur house. u cant straight away call the cops cause if its only ur imagination, it'll be a false alarm. but if its really happening, u dont wanna let those no-good-burglars take up ur precious belongings. u dont wanna do anything too heroic either, for fear that they might have a weapon. dah la abah takde......

what would u have done??



ni lagi satu citer scary. well, bajet scary. haha. the piping system at my hse has gone bengong since lame jgk (bayangkan bil air smpai 700. itu adelah gila khinzir). so the other week abah dh pnggil plumber/contractor betulkan, but apparently, our system still has a leak somewhere. so for now, we can only settle for, 'tutup pipe besar everynight so tak bazir air'.

nanti2, scary part belum start lagi.....

okay, so sempena stadi week, sy tidur lambat (of course sebab study & bukan online). while abah is gone (again) i have to be the one who go out, in the middle of the nite utk memulas kepala paip tersebut. jeng jeng jeng!!!

okay sape tau rumah saya angkat tangan!!
sape tau rumah kosong tepi rumah saya angkat tangan!!!
sape penah dengar rumah kosong tu rumah hantu angkat tangan!!!

so itu la citer dier. sy ni bukan la pemberani sgt, tapi tak la lemah smgt. camni, dier simple je, u go out, twist the pipe, and get back in.
but nooooooooo....... saya ni kan gedik. dah kuar tu, mau jeling2 rumah tu. jeling2 semak samun. pastu cam unggas malam2 kan buat sound effect kan?!?! pendek kata, saya ni sajela takutkan diri sendiri. so far, tak penah nmpak apape. taknak pun.


are u dissapointed dengan citer yg sikit pun tak scary nih?! haha. sebenanye, sy xle tdo mlm nih. skrg pun dh pukul 4pagi. esok sure bgn lmbt. nak stadi.. amacam ni?!