From the first cry, your life is no longer your own. The little creature you bring to life is a responsibility imposed on you. It's a gift to be cherished. You gather all your might night and day to provide for their needs. Against the world so cruel, you protect them and guide them so they can reach their potentials. You give so much sometimes you feel it's not enough. The paternal/maternal instinct in you dictates your doings as you only want what's best for them. So you keep on giving, hoping that they can make it better in their future lives, and if it's not too much to ask, return your 'favor' during your golden years.
But as they grow right before your eyes, they may not want to take everything that you give, whatever that may be. At times you feel unwanted, just because they now have minds of their own. Like it or not, you will need to take off the coach cap and sit with others as spectators watching their lives unfold. You pray hard so that they make the right choices, do the right things, and most importantly, be righteous.
Your every child is uniquely different from one another. One too many times you tell them 'I love you, just as much', but, your actions may tell a different story. One child's good natured personality or other's adorable features may render him/her getting a little bit more affection than others. You often deny your favourism but it is most apparent to those who feel less loved. Those who are hurting inside.
Yes, the heart wants what it wants, like who it likes. But as parents, it's not a luxury you can afford. Handle your children with utmost care, lest them blaming you for the rest of their lives.
Mak, abah, thank you for loving me, just as much. I'm sorry I question your unconditional love.